contentment.

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.  (Phil 4:12)

This is what I ask the Lord to teach me this day.  I know that I can ask him for what I want, but the true desire of my heart is not for my own wants but for his.  My heart aches over my own desires. I am blinded by what I want,  so much so that sometimes I can’t even see where my blessed Lord is leading me. 

Here’s my delimma…I’m supposed to ask him for what I want.  How much can I want and yet be content at the same time?  I don’t understand this at all.  My prayer is that the Lord would shape my desires to line up with his, that I might be content where I am, rejoicing in who he has made me.

I don’t want to wish my life away, chasing a desire of  my heart while missing out on the good gifts the Lord has given me for this day.  It is so hard.  I am tired.  It’s so much easier to just pine away sometimes.  Sometimes like right now.  I feel my fleshy-ness so much in moments such as these.

Has the Lord revealed truth to you about this? How has he taught you about your desires, about contentment?  I would love to hear about it.