risk assessment

I find myself weighing out decisions for so many areas of my life lately.  I came across this quote from C.S. Lewis that appears in  his book The Four Loves.  I feel like it pretty much sums up how I feel about making decisions, about taking action on a life I can be passionate about.  Passionate is what I want my life to be, but if there is one thing I have learned, it is that passion is not safe.  It is not comfortable.  But steered by and surrendered to the Almighty God, it is oh so good.

There is no safe investment.  To love at all is to be vulnerable.  Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken.  If you want to be sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal.  Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness.  But in that casket–safe, dark, motionless, airless–it will change.  It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.  

Here’s to living a life that is full of vulnerability, full of pain, full of growth, full of passion. Here’s to the abundant life that I was created to live…even in the midst of a fallen world.